Day 25 SOS-1999- Poetry Project

Creative Union
By Barbara Brennan

The fountain flows from within.
The rain flows from without.
Meeting together in brilliant colors and form.

The creative cycle is renewed once again.

Who knows what it will bring?

It is always in each moment
that the bringing comes to fruition!

Gayle’s Reflection:

So few words yet so deep they go. Down into the well spring of creation, where it gathers, rises up to the surface and is visible for all to see. Bringing it forth into this creative moment.

Isn’t all of life just cycles upon cycles?
Isn’t it really about how we manage our own cycles?
How do we know where we are on the cycle?
I am I now a fountain? Am I now rain?
What is it I am really creating here?
“Who knows what it will bring?”

The truth is God knows, the holy creator knows, My higher self knows – sees the big picture. As I become more able to make conscious choices, as I discover my essential self, then I am co-creating with God, Nature, AND myself.

This creative union within me and from outside of me coincides with the rhythms of Gaia Earth. The cycles of the moon and the sun resonate in a primal way with my physical body signaling what is next.

Gaia tells me when to hibernate, sow seeds, be out in the sun and when to harvest what I have grown. I trust her wisdom to help me bring each creative cycle into fruition.
I remember each moment holds potential for fruition.
Who knows what the next cycle of seed sowing will bring?

In this moment I am completing the latest cycle of forgiveness to be emptied from my fountain.
I anticipate spring rains to wash me clean.
For many months forgiveness has been springing forth from the fountain as I prepare new soil to plant more seeds of love.
I Release.

Thank you Barbara, I never knew I had so many creative moments.

See you tomorrow,
Love Gayle

Day 24 SOS – 1999 Poetry Project

The Next Step
By Barbara Brennan

Honor this divine uniqueness within you.
Recognize yourselves.
Recognize the divinity within you.
Honor, listen, and very gently, take yourself through the door into self -acknowledgement of who you truly are, including all aspects of your being.
All aspects of your life.
All aspects of your humanness.

You are divinely perfect in your imperfections.
And so, as we take the next few steps together
in this learning process, enjoy!
Give yourself the freedom to test, to choose,
to be, to surrender, to what is.

It is your life.
It is your predilection to choose.
No choice is wrong.
Every choice simply leads you to the next step.

Surrender to what that next step is for you.
Leave all expectation behind.
Step deeper into the self, and open to what is.

Gayle’s Reflection:

“Honoring the divine uniqueness within me.”

Opening with this line gives me permission to love and understand myself. Honor myself. Love myself. Choose me first. Barbara is telling us to see ourselves as we are in every detail and honor it as sacred.

Self-acknowledgement was not part of my vernacular growing up. Attempts to “claim” myself in my favorite choices were met with accusations of selfishness or overpowered my mom claiming that uniqueness of me as her own. After all, I was “just like her”. This caused me to stop trying to choose my desires and direct myself to pleasing her alone.

By doing this I created an inner conflict of needing to be exactly like her in order to survive and be loved. This went against my true need to self-express and NOT be just like mom. I only recently learned that inner conflict creates confusion within the mind- body, prevents alignment and misdirects creative choices.

Years later the patterns of following in the footsteps of parents become quite clear. Seeing them now, I am able to improve some aspects of the well-worn path of single parenthood. It is a part of my humanness to want to stay true to the tribe even if it is a difficult and painful path.

Now, I reflect on these perfect imperfections and inner conflicts, and pray that by the end of my time on Earth I will fully understand how perfect it all is. I use the phrase every time I feel I may have made a mistake or wrong choice.

“You are (I am) divinely perfect in my imperfections.”

Wow it lets me off the hook doesn’t it?
It allows me to surrender into God’s divine plan for me. I feel a sense of relief around being perfect. That is the freedom to choose from the heart…to dare to take another step away from expectation… Go ahead Gayle…You can do this…I got your back. . . There are no mistakes. . . See who you really are. . . Choose what you really desire. . . Be open to your next step.

Thank you Barbara, I walk my own path with ease, more confidence and grace.

See you tomorrow.
Love, Gayle