Day 23 SOS Poetry Project (2000)

Reclaiming Your Creative Seed
By Barbara Brennan

What are your sweet longings
that you have not been able to create?
You will find them in your time capsules,
covered with dualistic debris
in the form of good or bad judgments, emotional reactions
and all of the effects that have resulted
from acting out your judgments and emotional reactions.

Burn your time capsules with heart fire.
It is the debris that burns,
not the original seed kernel of your creative longing.

Direct your mind’s attention to the seed kernel longing.
If it is difficult to recognize,
simply look at your life.
What have you not been able to create
that you have longed for, perhaps for centuries?
You will find it as the seed kernel
buried deep within your creative debris.

Gayle’s Reflection:
These reflections I have been writing is a reclaiming process for me. Allowing the opportunity and discipline of writing regularly has uncovered some dualistic debris. This practice of showing up to write to share to feel, to know is a joyful habit for me to develop.
It is evidence of a longing I buried long ago.

My father was a writer. I never saw what he wrote, love letters to my mother, short essays, and letters home to parents and siblings from Korea. These writings never met my eyes, they were lost like everything else of his. I heard he was good at it. I have kept myself from accessing the dualistic debris of loss until now.

Now I am choosing to be free of the sadness of connecting with him… to be like him. Now I am choosing to write and asking him to assist. My father’s spirit has come to me of late as a guide for me. Can you imagine over 50 years after his death he is now ready? It’s a long time right?

I am ready now to receive my sweet longing to connect on the paper with myself, my dad and all of you. Whoa – who knew I would do this in 2014? Seems my heart fire has cleared the remaining debris away from that tiny mustard seed and kernel of my unclaimed longing.

I now recognize it and am regularly filled with joy and anticipation each time I open to write. I open my heart to speak to the words of Barbara and Heyoan.

The debris is removed.
My heart is readied.
The pencil flows effortlessly.
I choose to nourish the tiny mustard seed
of faith that I can do this.
I must do it now.
My sweet longing is here.

Thank you Barbara and Heyoan, I am now ready to access and claim my sweet longing.

See you tomorrow,
Love Gayle

Day 21 SOS Poetry Project

Replace Your Judgments With Love
By Barbara Brennan

Replace your judgments
with forgiveness and love.
First to the self, and then to others.

It is in this way
that you release your psycho-noetic residuals
or those portions of the self
held in darkness and forgetting
in the energy blocks in your bodies.

You will enlighten them.
And, as they become awakened
into your conscious awareness,
they then join the creative pulse of life
flowing through you,
moment to moment to moment.

And so we greet you here
in this lovely atmosphere
to begin another day of self-inquiry
of surprises and delights
of what you find in your inner landscape
of the abilities you have not yet recognized
within yourselves.

This is our purpose
in this communion with you.

Gayle’s Reflection:
How many judgments do you have in a day? Hundreds? Thousands? Ten? We humans are designed to have many judgments and discernments throughout the course of the day. We determine how fast to travel on the highway, where to eat for lunch, or how we feel about our job and the end of the day. All are forms of judgment. Much of it does not require forgiveness or love. Some of it does.

Judgment is a skill set we learn very early in our development. Our parents show us how to dress, speak and behave. This creates a level of judgment of what is acceptable and what needs to be adjusted. Criticism is judgment toward the self, the person, rather than the object. Over emphasis on the imperfection will develop early childhood wounding around not being good enough or loveable.

We learn these patterns and execute them as we grow and have relationship of all sorts. We judge ourselves, we just others, and we judge with a critical eye our workplaces and institutions. All of which are comprised of people like ourselves.

Most of the judgments are not necessary. Most of them fall behind the pain of wounding and sometimes release the psycho-noetic time capsules. Releasing them is a gift of healing. Take the sacred moment of release and understand the origin. That is the point in which to forgive and love the self and other. In that moment the creation of a judgment based on fear is transmuted into Love.

Forgive and love yourself for not knowing about it prior. With application of love, enlightenment arrives and the wisdom pours forth in the form of conscious awakening. This frees up the flow of your creative pulse.

So check those harsh judgments mid-stream and notice if they require love, forgiveness or both. Apply as needed and go forth into your day with a larger volume of love to vibrate out as you recognize more of yourself.

Thank you Barbara I love practicing Love and Forgiveness.
See you tomorrow,
Love Gayle.