ACOA = Adult Child of an Alcoholic PTSD = Post Traumatic Stress Disorder

Once upon a time there was a little girl who was unfortunately influenced by the effects of having a parent who was subject to being under the influence of alcohol. This child and this parent were truly just regular folks who felt pain. Be it the pain of overwhelm, fear of death, loss, lack, feelings of inadequacy, and depression. The child was subject to many mini-traumas and sometimes large traumas.

PTSD/ACOAChildren feel way more than we understand. The sense of fear that would be elicited in the girl’s body made her heart jump and her breath stop. The fear of saying or doing the wrong thing made her become very careful and reserved, for an accidental burst of joy or smart talk could affect the whole family when the bear awoke and showed its ugly teeth. One could not jeopardize the entire group through bad words or behavior. Thus slowly and sometimes instantly, the shutdown begins and Post Traumatic Stress Disorder is born within another innocent heart.

Gradually numbing and disconnect occur in the heart of the girl who loved to be free and spontaneous was gone and buried deep within where no one could see her. She was hidden away. Her trust in her family was shifted to disappointment. Was it possible to trust anyone in this world? Doesn’t every parent betray, abandon and neglect their child? How does one figure all this out? I know… be really good in school where expectations are more predictable.

Sometimes her fear turned into rage. How can anyone for so long hold their precious feelings ever so tightly with no room for passion and hopefulness, creativity, empowerment and enthusiasm. All of these wonderful growth feelings every child deserves to engage with were limited and diminished by the alcoholic parent. The feelings that were allowed were despair, discouragement, insecurity, numbing, unworthiness and powerlessness. She had acquired those in abundance. Those feelings she lived with every day until her ability to feel the others was nearly gone or only showed up on rare occasions.

Now as an Adult Child of an Alcoholic (ACOA), she has the clear choice to not engage with the alcoholic or the behavior patterns. She slowly uncovers the joyful feelings and creates space to give them new light and air to breath and expand. The process can be challenging, but the outcome is always blissfully better. More time spent with appreciation, love, knowledge and freedom, is worth the dark journey to it. She found her way out of the tunnel of fear and into the tunnel of Love. The Good news is she didn’t do it alone. She found many allies who assisted in loving her while she recovered her lost heart. Her Brennan Healing Science healer was at the core.

It is important to find the support you need with fellow travelers who have endured the rigorous training and imprinting living in a family of alcoholics brings to us. Get yourself to an Al-Anon meeting that feels good to you. There you will find a fellowship of travelers. Try some psychotherapy to work out the details of the pain and events that caused the mini-traumas leading to the varying levels of PTSD which may affect you in adulthood.

Brennan Healing Energy combined with Reiki can help you re-pattern your bio-energetic neuro-network that was imprinted with the alcoholic training. Reiki Energy Healing can also help you and re-parent yourself to a new place of emotional response to the triggers of life. Once you learn how to do it you can use it on yourself.

Always remember to have compassions for yourself and the alcoholic who was most likely a little child with some scary bear in the house as well. Love and forgiveness heal all wounds. It just takes time and support to recover. If you would like to talk about this disease some more schedule a free consult to see if Brennan Energy Healing is right for you. Email me today.

Blessings for your recovery.

Send It Back

Send It BAck

Good Day Dear Heart,
Remember always your gifts are many.
You offer up many avenues to find the Self.
Reflection, reflection, reflection.
Your man is reflecting back to you what is still represented in your field.
Give this back to yourself.
Give and love in you all of the hurt places where messy old men bear have peed on your person.
Made you feel less than.
Made you feel insignificant.
Made you notice your own inadequacies in your thinking.

These are only negative vibrations, placed upon you where you are not whole in yourself.
Where you cannot find who you are because at a critical age you were diminished by a brutal angry bear.
Remember they are only experiences for your growth and they do not represent who you truly are.
It is time to take these places of insignificant diminishes and return them back to their creator.
These are not experiences you wish to claim any longer.
Even though they are a part of you
THEY ARE NOT YOU!
THEY ARE NOT YOU!
THEY ARE NOT YOU!

Return the essence of them back to their own creator and do not allow any place of diminishment to reside in your essential nature.
Do not allow it to reside.
Do not allow it to reside.

Place it where it belongs with it’s creator…
With it’s creator
Send it Back
Send it Back
Send it Back.

Give yourself space to release and return those energies you absorbed in your field
Release & Return
Release & Return
Release & Return.

All that was placed in your energy field that does not belong to you dear heart.
All that does not belong to you
All that does not belong to you.

Release & Forgive
Release & Forgive
Release & Forgive

Forgive yourself for holding onto it for so long.
Forgive yourself for not forgiving the Creator of the pain.
Forgive the Creator of the Pain as you return their creation of pain, abandonment, embarrassment, humiliation, violence, and betrayal unto them

Forgive it all and know you are creating space for yourself to create by design the Life you are wanting.
Create your Space By Design
Create you Space By Design
Trust and know it will arrive as you choose…

Day By Day the unfolding occurs as you create space and open your arms to receive Love in that space
Love of Self
Love of Other
Love of Creation.

Open to allow it all to vibrate to you
Open to allow it all to vibrate to you.
Smile and Receive your Reward.

Gayle Hannan©

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