Day 15 SOS Poetry Project

Deeper Union
By Barbara Brennan

Life experiences arising from activities
that you have chosen through the gift of free will,
according to your personal truth
the sounding board of all of your life experiences
whatever form, whatever century
whatever planet, whatever body,
joined with your spiritual longing,
fuse the essence of your core
your purpose in the moment
and the levels of the field,
serve to fill the purpose
of your soul’s incarnation

These life activities chosen by your truth
can be extremely complicated, intricate
thought processes,
extremely simple
anything in-between.

To fulfill the purpose of the soul
is to create deeper union.

Gayle’s Reflection:

This one is where I am in this moment recognizing my life choices and experiences. Some were clearly of my own free will while other choices came upon me from somewhere else. Sometimes we follow by choice the will of others. Sometimes the will of other is thrust upon us and we must comply.

Being raised by a widow who struggled to provide, we were transient in our residences. This was thrust upon me. Having various outsiders and relatives also living in our home was thrust upon me. I was not consulted nor asked my feelings in these matters. I had only to endure it. Most of it had traumatizing effects.

When my tribe of five cousins joined us I was surprised to be able to feel so connected to my people. A deeper union to knowing them began. I shared my bedroom and loved being with them every day. We came to live together and were all living in shock because a younger brother was killed in a car accident. A scene we came upon after a holiday party. This terror was thrust upon us. We grieved together and anesthetized ourselves a lot in those days. So much pain.

During those days our sadness often went unspoken. Overall, I knew my early life had led me on a path of grief. It has helped me understand introspection and query the meaning of life. This sounding board of my life experience has driven me toward my purpose for my life and soul’s evolution.

Since those high school days the cousins have dispersed and passed away too. I miss you all, love you very much and sometimes long for that time of deeper union. Bye for now… G,C, W, A, D, J, and A

Thank you Barbara I have more clarity around the levels of grief and love I have experienced.
See you tomorrow,
Love, Gayle.

Day 14 SOS Poetry Project

Centering Home
By Barbara Brennan

As you center in the core of your divinity
feel the essence of self,
the essence that goes beyond time and space
that has existed forever
the divine within you.

It is in the center of your being
that you will learn to re-identify the self
as God centered.

Centered with divinity.
Receiving all that comes and goes,
all that flows through you and around you
all of the creative life force
that comes from within you
expanding outward, precipitating down
through the levels of the field

into the physical and then receding back
into this God self-identity within you.

The more you allow yourself
to experience this reality
within the center of your being

and within every cell of your body
the more you know that you are divine
as is all around you.

It is from this perspective
that transformation, transcendence
and transfiguration
will accomplish the task
of the next evolutionary step of humanity.

Gayle’s Reflection:

Today, I asked SOS if I should close my office space in Plymouth and move back home – the title says one thing, and the text says something else. I am home – me-within my divine physical body. It is always with me. It houses my light being and soul spirit. Whenever I need or want, I can focus there -my essence self. Re-identifying myself as God centered.

So what does this say to me?

Close the doors and move my client practice back to my house?
Do more centering practice in my office space?
Begin to see myself- feel my essence as God?

Oh the blasphemy!
It is all rather confusing and crazy making at times.
Am I God/Goddess?
Am I a slave to the system needing money every day to survive?
Am I a sensitive, creative artist who is unable and unwilling to continue to battle in the world in order to survive?
Am I ever really at home in this body, walking around this Earth?

“It is in the center of your being that you will learn to re-identify the self as God centered.” I am Goddess and I neglect my self-realization of this fact.

Receiving all that comes and goes I am the creator of much of it. Some of it was thrust upon me and some of it repeated unconsciously.
Today the focus of repetition is in neglect. As an example…

Check out Dr. Emoto’s test on 3 batches of cooked white rice sitting in a jar with a person applying love, negative judgment or neglect for 100 days, and see the interesting results. http://youtu.be/4sbzCaEsHfw

The ignored-neglected batch was rotting, brown and decomposing.

The “you fool” jar was grey and brown from the top down with some white at the bottom of the jar. The gratitude was clean, pure and mostly white.

This experiment shows me that neglecting and ignoring expedites the decomposition of organisms. Seems it would be true with organisms of the human type as well. I now see how I neglect to engage my Goddess centered qualities… more practice required and more gratitude applied will result in maintaining beauty and health.
Even though my early life presented me with neglect and being treated as though I do not exist, I now have the choice to apply love to myself…from my own heart and find my true value and worthiness for being loved.

Thank you Barbara for helping me realize my own heart center of love.

See you tomorrow,
Love, Gayle